这blog应该被大家给neglected 了。。。
过了那么久。。又回到了这里。。
明知道会伤， 会痛， 会不公平。。。
一而再，再而三地警告自己别这麽做，
最终还是忍不住地到了这里。。
非常痛，眼泪都已干了。。。。
不知道许要花多少的时间才能结束。。。
很不想这么说。。
但是，
小呆，我好想你。。

我很想你，你知道吗？听见了吗？

你在哪里?这些年来如意不如意?
还快乐?还单纯?还美丽?
时光如何对你?我在这里人海中的一座岛屿
很平静风平浪静
只除了深夜里回忆会疯狂来袭我很想你你知道吗
如果可以就让我再见你
美好微笑清澈眼睛
好确定那持离只毁了我一个而已

我很想你听见了吗? woo~
这是唯一我无解的困境
那些过去不肯过去
不管我后来遇见多少人
只能叹息
都不是你
我只想爱你我在哪里?你会不会偶尔好奇?
有没有曾经怀疑?
我说我会忘记只是种好意

Happy birthday

*~*~*~*~*~*~*~生日快乐~*~*~*~*~*~*~*~*

7th

My first day in my new job... so glad so many pple seem to welcome mi there so much... feel so heart warming... feeling like i'm home... :) so many new things... new pple... new challenges...

Realized the big roller of the kitchen set seem damaged... tried to fix it but end up the whole bleddy thing fell on my feet... guess that was the worse welcome gift of all... it was very tough as itz heavy... unstable... but with my wonder hands... :]

More to come tomorrow!!!

I ROCK!!

Miss you

天亮了雨下了你走了
清楚了我爱的遗失了
落叶飘在湖面上睡着了
想要放放不掉泪在飘
你看看你看看不到
我假装过去不重要却发现自己办不到

说了再见才发现再也见不到
我不能就这样失去你的微笑
口红待在桌脚而你我找不到
若角色对调你说好不好

说了再见才发现再也见不到
能不能就这样忍着痛泪不掉
说好陪我到老永恒往哪里找
再次拥抱一分一秒都好

天亮了雨下了你走了
清楚了我爱的遗失了
落叶飘在湖面上睡着了
想要放放不掉泪在飘
你看看你看看不到
我假装过去不重要却发现自己办不到

说了再见才发现再也见不到
我不能就这样失去你的微笑
口红待在桌脚而你我找不到
若角色对调你说好不好

你的笑你的好脑海里一直在绕
我的手忘不了你手的温度
心碎了一地捡不回从前的心跳
伤心过去我无力逃跑

说再见才发现再也见不到
能不能就这样忍着痛泪不掉
说好陪我到老永恒往哪里找
再次拥抱一分一秒都好

6th 19/05/2010

My Dear XiaoDai~

HAPPY 2 YEAR ANNIVERSARY!!! ^-^

Just one wink and two years passed... :] Thinking back... we had so so much together... when i first saw u in pub... when i first chat with u on the phone... when i first bought our anniversary rings on 19/05/08... The moment when u said "Yes"

Everything was so sweet...

I missed the time in Circle Green with you... Hong Kong... Genting... your house... my house... when i waited for u in your school... your work place... singing.. pool... everything...

I missed you alot my dear~

I've nv regretted being with you my dear... though you left me when i didn't even have the chance to bring you more happiness... I am happy and grateful you left me such beautiful memories in my life... :)

I LOVE YOU MY DEAR....

5th

Hi XiaoDai~

I was awarded into the hospital two days ago after a fight at the BAH CHOR MEE PLACE,,, so damn childish AH BENG... damn freaking attract attention..

We, 3 guyz 3 girls sitting there chatting. Behind us sat 10 guys... tattoo here and there... one look at them you know they are "nonsense".

They tepped on one of our girl and said ssshhhh. She then said " how old already so childish"... they a bit bueh song liao... but no problem... they continued chatting and their our girl heard them saying we're noisy again. And once again... she called them childish. This time round they bueh song liaoz... they slammed the table and started acting like monkeys... @!$!%$! they startrd taking up chairs. You won't believe it... your dear.. who is mi... asked them.. u take up chairss for wat.. they said "whack you la!" haha~ i said" THIS IS SINGAPORE.. YOU THINK HONG KONG ARH!"

Haha... then they "HIAN TOH" flipped table and started assaulting us.... they watched too much GU HUO ZAI SHOW already... they thought they are SAN JI and CHEN HAO NAN.
We fought for around 10 min and i think they were afraid of police arriving so they left... and you know wat? Chee Boon's head kept flowing blood... my nose kept flowing blood AND... Feng Rui WASN'T INJURED AT ALL... Chee Boon and one of the girl drove and we went to TTSH.

Chee Boon had a total 12 stitches on his head.. and back injury...
I got ehacked hard on my head whacked by something... lucky onli cut on the skin... but don't know whether got internal injury... my back ... chest and stomach got bruises and my back of shoulder got a long bruises... think was whacked y chair... muscle injury...

We asked Feng Rui wat was he doing... how come no injury... he said he was holding back 2 of the guys thatz y... Hmm... but Chee Boon and i were having a hard time with 8 other guyz! Alamak... don't know la... no right no wrong... juz felt unlucky.

Chee Boon recognized 1 of the guy from our secondary school and we're gonna give his information to the police... hopefully they will all get sent into the jail.

My Dear XiaoDai... this is what happened after u left mi... when we were together... i totally cut down my night life to the minimum... after u left mi... my night life increased tremendously and ended up such thing happen to mi... see how much you've changed my life? If we're still together now... i don't think i wil even have a single chance in admitting the hospital~.. :]

I miss the simple life we had for the past two years... it was sweet. :]
MC till the 19thMay... juz nice our 2 years Anniversary... haha.. i was so shocked when the doctor told mi that... haha~ Kenna Lamed... ^_^

Oh ya... one last one... she called mi just now and asked about my condition... but half way through she got busy.. said she'll call mi back but ended up she didn't, :] Well... wat to do... she's attached... she don't even need to do that~ :] Dear~Dear~Dear~

Hao la... shall stop here... wish mi a speedy recovery okie~ ^_^

Miss ya~

4th

My Dear XiaoDai~

Tonight was a horrible night...

Saw Zul with his gf in J8 food court... he's now a security guard... :] wat a great jump...

Finally i gotta watch my IP MAN.... very nice show... but 1 bad thing...
Cos tonight's the first time i watch movie without u by my side... i felt so awkward...
I kept thinking that someone will put popcorn into my mouth... to share drink with me... but the one beside me wasn't u.

Went for beancurd after that... Weiyang came to join us...
He's driving a WRX... cool~
He's both working and renting a unit...

Again made me think of you.. suggesting we could rent a house after we registered or got married... plan to start out business and start earning extra money~

As normal... they asked me what happened... everything seem fine for us... as usual~ all i can do is... smile~

We went playing pool in TPY... throughout the whole section was when we used to play pool in the past...

Dear... i hope you can sense how much i misses you and how much i wish you didn't disappear from my life~

Guess tonight's gonna be terrible... >.<~
Gonna sleep le...

Love you

3rd

Dear XiaoDai

Cut hair cut hair~ after you left my life... cut hair has became a BIG PROBLEM to mi... thought we could be together for long... thatz y i settled down with the salon in 768... but i feel itz stupid for mi to go all the way there just for a hair cut now~ sad... don't know where to have my hair cut liao... :|

Today my pi yang again lor... i actually asked her if she wanna catch a show with me... haha~ she indirectly rejected mi oh.... saying i am alwayz busy... not so bad la... at least she found a gentle excuse to reject mi... :]

Have to find a place to cut my hair before my next off day loh~

Miss ya XiaoDai ^^

2nd

Hey XiaoDai~

Was so angry just now with the CITIBANK... wanted to draw money but they blocked my pin... i called them and it wasted almost one hour of my time in front of the machine... they said they blocked cos i too long didn't draw money... thatz y they change... i was so furious and i told her off... doesm't make sense right? she told mi have to wait for 3 days to give mi my new pin but i told her i demand it now... and guess wat? She gave mi... thatz y sometime... cannot be to nice... pple take it for granted la...

11 plus... rush cab down to Eve's grandma's funeral just now~
tried my luck whether she juz ended her dancing lesson and and is able to go down.. but she went and went home... too bad la.. ha~ sway... haha~

lucky the saddening part of the funeral has long passed when i was there... everything was calm and peaceful... :) When i saw those frenz of yours... i felt so warm... made mi think of you again... :) especially those kids... guess cos that was the first time i was with them without you by my side...

Laughters and joys... about u and them... about u and mi...but of course contain some emo when they mentioned about our relationship... they said they were so shocked they knew we seperated cos they thought deeply that we will last very very long... or even get married... they asked me questions.. some i said... some i just change topic... but they caught and kept asking again... haha~ lucky your dear is good in siaming... :D

Memories and memories... :) it makes mi smile... it makes mi emo... Really can't stand myself... haha~ don't worry~ your dear is strong... won't end up in IMH .. :D
Gonna sleep soon lohz...

Mizz ya my dear XiaoDai~

1st

My dear Xiaodai~
i miss you alot.... You left my life but you kept appearing in my dreams...
I felt so lucky for that hours... but when i realize everything was but a dream when i woke up in the morning... i felt hurt... Made me felt contradicted whether itz good or bad. Hmm~ ;|

I'm still making myself get use to living my life without you... but i sometime still get cheeky and think of you... :Þ

Filling myself with programs is what i can do... jio pple from everywhere... to sing.. club... watch movies blah blah... things that i used to do with you... i told myself i used to have no worries to find a companion for my programs but now~~~~ itz dif...
Well... guess thatz life... not everything goes smoothly as what u hope it will~ i have no idea what i am hoping for now... just let days pass... hope you're doing well and haven't forgotten your DaiDai~ :]

Your beloved
DaiDai

亲爱的小呆,
我将把你放进回意里，不会望记我们曾度过的时光~

Kimberley Han,
你要过得幸福快乐，好好照顾自己的身子，不能生病~

终于可以在今天划上句点
一整夜翻阅过去画面
快想不起我们为何会诀别
只看到那双你送的鞋

走一步又一步
我才发现绕了个圈
走了好几年
又回到原点

你送的礼物会不会太特别
毫不避讳那不安的传言
但渐行渐远习惯到没感觉
难道你早想要我走远

你送的礼物在此刻好体贴
陪我回忆把过往走一遍
穿了这些年难免会有污点
就像每段爱总会有终点

世上最残酷的恐怕是时间
困住人一切却还向前
干涸的眼再挤不出一点咸
爱到如此可悲的境界

走一步又一步
却跟不上你的脚步
你满意了
为什么我却只想要哭

你送的礼物会不会太特别
毫不避讳那不安的传言
但渐行渐远习惯到没感觉
难道你早想要我走远

你送的礼物在此刻好体贴
陪我回忆把过往走一遍
穿了这些年难免会有污点
就像每段爱总会有终点

你说做自己吧
我们都做回自己
不要再为爱受委屈

你送的礼物原来是一场劫
终于分别夙命一样准确
可笑到想要你赔给我时间
爱情有时廉价得可怜

光著脚我一路奔跑
鲜血泪水一路狂飙
收起我的骄傲
承认曾经备受煎熬
鞋上那记号
只有你能明了
过了这一夜
我就全忘掉

Meant To Be

Once in a lifetime Someone walks into your life And leaves footprints on your heart And from that moment Life as you know it will never be the same

You changed my life in so many ways.. you taught me to believe in myself.. when others didn't.. You told me to hold my head high... when others tried to hold me down..

You encourage and inspire me to be the best i can be.. But most importantly.. you taught me how to love.. unconditionally.. With you.. i can be myself... and for all these things... i am eternally grateful...

I never thought love existed... until i met you.. I never thought love was possible... until i touched you... You brought outa passion in me.. that i never knew existed.. and now i realise... that life without you... is not possible..

People serach a lifetime... to find that one special person... to share their dreams with... their thoughts.. their feelings.. their hearts.. i found that special someone- in you

Before i met you.. my life was without meaning.. but now.. well.. now i dare to dream... With you by my side.. nothing seem impossible... Each day i thank god... for giving me.. the gift of you...

It would be selfish of me... to ask her for anything else.. And eventhough.. life is full of uncertainties.. and holds no guarantees.. one thing is certain... that my last thought.. before the last day of my life... will be of you...

Thank you for loving me like no one ever has... and like no one ever will... I Love You my dear~

如如果你眼神能够为我
片刻的降临
如果你能听到
心碎的声音
沉默的守护著你
沉默的等奇迹
沉默的让自己
像是空气
大家都吃著聊著笑著
今晚多开心
最角落里的我
笑得多合群
盘底的洋葱像我
永远是调味品
偷偷的看著你
偷偷的隐藏著自己
如果你愿意一层一层一层的剥开我的心
你会发现你会讶异
你是我最压抑
最深处的秘密
如果你愿意一层一层一层的剥开我的心
你会鼻酸你会流泪
只要你能听到我
看到我的全心全意
听你说你和你的他们
暧昧的空气
我和我的绝望
装得很风趣
我就样一颗洋葱
永远是配角戏
多希望能与你有一秒
专属的剧情

My phone~ lagging badly.... thousand over messages........ why can't i bring myself to delete them?

你真的能够放弃和忘记吗?
如果你做得到, 我佩服你,
因为我做不到....

习惯就好

你的手机又收不到
我像疯子在街上绕
努力跑你的温度
雨淋过几条街都散不掉

你面无表情的嘴角
像在嘲笑我的胡闹
回头看突然明了
爱过了使用期效你就想逃

我想维持礼貌忘记骄傲
继续做你唯一的城堡
习惯就好习惯就好
是我选择看不到分手预兆
没有一丝睡意的困扰无法治疗
习惯就好习惯就好
我承认我的伪装是真的不够好
请给我多一秒

你的手机又收不到
我像疯子在街上绕
努力跑你的温度
雨淋过几条街都散不掉

你面无表情的嘴角
像在嘲笑我的胡闹
回头看突然明了
爱过了使用期效你就想逃

我想维持礼貌忘记骄傲
继续做你唯一的城堡
习惯就好习惯就好
是我选择看不到分手预兆
没有一丝睡意的困扰无法治疗
习惯就好习惯就好
我承认我的伪装是真的不够好
请给我多一秒

music~

习惯就好习惯就好
一个人在雨里继续的奔跑
却发现再也听不到自己的心跳
习惯就好习惯就好
我承认我的伪装是真的不够好
请给我多一秒~

*~Does it really take the same amount of time to forget someone after you put in that amount of time loving her?~*

我爱过你

一分鐘 拥抱多像永久　

再温暖也到了最后

在分岔路口　

怎麼捨不得总是要　

有人先走

我以為我 没有流泪　

為什麼却加倍难受

若开口挽留　

是犯了最残忍的错　

什麼都别说

我爱过你才懂 谁都没有错　

鬆手安静癒合伤口

走到了最像朋友的出口　

我们怎麼能回头

离开你才懂 真实地爱过　

才捨得目送你自由

直到多年后再见　

听笑容说 爱过你的是我

邰正宵 - 我爱过你

一滴泪 归还多少温柔　

替我留在你的胸口

我只能挥手　

怕抬头想起你的脸　

曾是我天空

我爱过你才懂 相处著寂寞　

不如忍痛各自漫游

勇敢爱到分开不是尽头　

我们会活在心中

离开你才懂 真实地爱过　

才捨得目送你自由

记得如果再重逢 不同街头　

爱过你的是我

记得要过得比我更快乐

答应我珍惜对的人那一双手

我爱过你才懂 谁都没有错　

鬆手安静癒合伤口

走到感情最温馨的出口　

我们怎麼能回头

离开你才懂 真实地爱过　

才捨得目送你自由

记得如果再重逢　

不同街头 爱过你的是我

爱著你的 是我

Dear you

After fighting and struggling for so long... i gave up~


My initial plan was to throw you a big surprise on 19th May, which is suppose to be our 2 year Anniversary, to win your heart back.


But

I really can't stand it anymore...
you broke your promise... went dating with guyz...
you told mi you'll most prob become his gf next month
you neglected my messages and calls
etc

I was so stupid to find thousands of excuses for you.

Until when i heard the way you spoke to him, when you told him he must be sleeping when he didn't reply after you sent him several messages... when u told him you'll call him when u get home...my heart scattered. You sound so sweet, just like when we were together.

I'm here messaging you, waiting for your replies... you're there messaging him, waiting for his replies.

I took off to accompany u to reborn your hair... you spent all your time there messaging...
I took off to accompany you to the physician and this was wat i get...

It took me loads of courage to pick up my phone... to inform i'll be collecting my clothes. But thinking back on the look on your face when u talked to him... i did it.

Was thinking maybe you'll stop me... explain a little... tell me you don't want me to go.... but you did nothing to save the situation.

So this is how you treasure me and our relationship?

i thought i found my true love in life.... but.... ~

我走了以后
你要好好生活
不要想我
也别再哭了

你的承诺

乌云遮蔽了天空

窗外又是阴雨时候

伞下的恋人中

不再有你我手牵手

一切过了太久

我们的十字路口

下一站是谁在等候

你我的方向盘

却向着相反的彼岸

终点还是分开

告别你我离开之后

这回忆可以保留

当初那美好的感动

你说你记住了不为彼此难过

过各自的生活

oh baby～

你答应我的我都记得

但是你却忘了你的承诺

不是说好彼此都不再联络

谁都别再犯错

是我的固执让你难过

但是分手却也无法选择

我走了以后

你要好好生活不要想我

也别再哭了

彩虹

哪里有彩虹告诉我
能不能把我的愿望还给我
为什么天这么安静
所有云都跑到我这里

有没有口罩一个给我
释怀说了太多就成真不了
也许时间是一种解药
也是我现在正服下的毒药

看不见你的笑 我怎么睡得着
你的身影这么近我却抱不到
没有地球太阳还是会绕
没有理由我也能自己走

你要离开 我知道很简单
你说依赖 是我们的阻碍
就算放开 那能不能别没收我的爱
当作我最后才明白

有没有口罩一个给我
释怀说了太多就成真不了
也许时间是一种解药
也是我现在正服下的毒药

看不见你的笑 我怎么睡得着
你的身影这么近我却抱不到
没有地球太阳还是会绕
没有理由我也能自己走

你要离开 我知道很简单
你说依赖 是我们的阻碍
就算放开 那能不能别没收我的爱
当作我最后才明白
看不见你的笑
要我怎么睡得着
你的身影这么近我却抱不到
没有地球太阳开始环绕环绕
没有理由我也能自己走掉
是我说了太多就成真不了
也许时间是一种解药解药
也是我现在正服下的毒药

你要离开 我知道很简单
你说依赖 是我们的阻碍
就算放开 那能不能别没收我的爱
当作我最后才明白

习惯就好

你的手机又收不到
我像疯子在街上绕
努力跑 你的温度
雨淋过几条街都散不掉
你面无表情的嘴角
像在嘲笑我的胡闹
回头看 突然明了
爱过了使用期效 你就想逃
我想维持礼貌忘记骄傲
继续做你唯一的城堡
习惯就好 习惯就好
是我选择看不到分手预兆
没有一丝睡意的困扰无法治疗
习惯就好 习惯就好
我承认我的伪装是真的不够好
请给我多一秒
你的手机又收不到
我像疯子在街上绕
努力跑 你的温度
雨淋过几条街都散不掉
你面无表情的嘴角
像在嘲笑我的胡闹
回头看 突然明了
爱过了使用期效 你就想逃
我想维持礼貌忘记骄傲
继续做你唯一的城堡
习惯就好 习惯就好
是我选择看不到分手预兆
没有一丝睡意的困扰无法治疗
习惯就好 习惯就好
我承认我的伪装是真的不够好
请给我多一秒
习惯就好 习惯就好
一个人在雨里继续地奔跑
却发现再也听不到自己的心跳
习惯就好 习惯就好
我承认我的伪装是真的不够好
请给我多一秒 一秒

最爱还是你

没开口的话怎样才能懂
我好想把画面倒带回头
你留在我心中熟悉的表情
每个温暖纯白的记忆穿越了距离

拥挤的人潮没有人知道

我偷偷想你嘴角就会笑

不要说对不起也不要问原因

就让世界不停的向前

别忘记从前


最爱还是你这是我的决定


像宇宙相对的星互相吸引

慢慢就会靠近
慢慢就会忘记


还是要爱你


时间会证明


我爱你的勇气


牵着你的手才知道是永久
这一次我放弃了所有
只为能再与你相遇
一辈子不放手
没开口的话怎样才能懂
我好想把画面倒带回头
你留在我心中熟悉的表情
每个温暖纯白的记忆穿越了距离

拥挤的人潮没有人知道

我偷偷想你嘴角就会笑

不要说对不起也不要问原因

就让世界不停的向前

别忘记从前


最爱还是你这是我的决定


像宇宙相对的星互相吸引

慢慢就会靠近
慢慢就会忘记


还是要爱你


时间会证明


我爱你的勇气


牵着你的手才知道是永久
这一次我放弃了所有
只为能再与你相遇
一辈子不放手

Until today~ itz still a question mark...

普通朋友

等待
我随时随地在等待
做你感情上的依赖
我没有任何的疑问
这是爱
我猜
你早就想要说明白
我觉得自己好失败
从天堂掉落到深渊
多无奈
我愿意改变(what can i do?)
重新再来一遍(just give me change)
我无法只是普通朋友
感情已那么深
叫我怎么能收手
但你说
i only want to be your friend
做个朋友
我在
你心中只是just a friend
不是情人
我感激你对我这样的坦白
但我给你的爱暂时收不回来
so i
我不能只是be your friend
i just can't be your friend
no,no,no,
我不能只是做你的朋友
不能只是做普通朋友 

57

突然好想你

最怕空气突然安静
最怕朋友突然的关心
最怕回忆突然翻滚
绞痛着不平息
最怕突然听到你的消息

想念如果会有声音
不愿那是悲伤的哭泣
事到如今
终于让自已属于我自已
只剩眼泪还骗不过自己

突然好想你
你会在哪里
过的快乐或委屈
突然好想你
突然锋利的回忆
突然模糊的眼睛

我们像一首最美丽的歌曲
变成两部悲伤的电影
为什么你
带我走过最难忘的旅行
然后留下最痛的纪念品
最怕空气突然安静
最怕朋友突然的关心
最怕回忆突然翻滚
绞痛着不平息
最怕突然听到你的消息

想念如果会有声音
不愿那是悲伤的哭泣
事到如今
终于让自已属于我自已
只剩眼泪还骗不过自己

突然好想你
你会在哪里
过的快乐或委屈
突然好想你
突然锋利的回忆
突然模糊的眼睛

我们像一首最美丽的歌曲
变成两部悲伤的电影
为什么你
带我走过最难忘的旅行
然后留下最痛的纪念品

其实还爱你

我讨厌阴天的风
冷得那么刺痛
只有你能够抚平所有的寂寞
昨天的风筝在角落
被谁丢到了路口
我很不想让你找到离开的理由
每一夜闭上眼睛
我看到了恶梦
你微笑但是旁边的人不是我
天空切开一道裂缝
直接割到我心中
不想装作脆弱
也不想爱得懦弱
其实我非常爱你不想失去你
难道我没有权利说我不愿意
你给了他的吻
虽然只有余温
可知道我多渴望抓住你的心
我知道他很爱你你怕他伤心
我每天假装开心害怕你离去
可不可以任性
求求你不要去
藏在我心里最后一句
其实还爱你
可不可以任性
求求你不要去
藏在我心里最后一句
其实还爱你

爱的天国

有谁能够告诉我
时间的海多深
你和我的心明明曾经是相爱的
是否你还听得到
我呼喊你的声音
为何我有种靠不近你的心情
越来越不能够相信
生命之中没有你
好像天国没有美丽的嫁衣
为什么在我的眼睛
总有预感将要下雨
就算走在人群里也觉得好孤寂
为什么在你的眼睛
我看不到你的疼惜
难道爱已融化在时间里
有谁能够告诉我
爱的天空多远
你和我的梦是否可能会实现
越来越不能够相信
生命之中没有你
好像天国没有美丽的嫁衣
为什么在我的眼睛
总有预感将要下雨
就算走在人群里也觉得好孤寂
为什么在你的眼睛
我看不到你的疼惜
难道爱已融化在时间里
为什么相爱的原因
随着你转身的离去
爱的天国已遥不可及

How can lupus affect pregnancy or the newborn?

Patients with SLE who become pregnant are considered "high risk." Women with SLE who are pregnant require close observation during pregnancy, delivery, and the postpartum period. This includes fetal monitoring by the obstetrician during later pregnancy. These women can have an increased risk of miscarriages (spontaneous abortions) and can have flares of SLE during pregnancy. The presence of phospholipid antibodies, such as cardiolipin antibodies or lupus anticoagulant, in the blood can identify patients at risk for miscarriages. Cardiolipin antibodies are associated with a tendency toward blood clotting. Patients with SLE who have cardiolipin antibodies or lupus anticoagulant may need blood-thinning medications (aspirin with or without heparin) during pregnancy to prevent miscarriages. Other reported treatments include the use of intravenous gamma globulin for selected patients with histories of premature miscarriage and those with low blood-clotting elements (platelets) during pregnancy. Pregnant women who have had a previous blood-clotting event may benefit by continuation of blood-thinning medications throughout and after pregnancy for up to six to 12 weeks, at which time the risk of clotting associated with pregnancy seems to diminish. Plaquenil has now been found to be safe for use to treat SLE during pregnancy.

Lupus antibodies can be transferred from the mother to the fetus and result in lupus illness in the newborn ("neonatal lupus"). This includes the development of low red cell (anemia) and/or white blood cell and platelet counts, and skin rash. Problems can also develop in the electrical system of the baby's heart (congenital heart block). Occasionally, a pacemaker for the baby's heart is needed in this setting. Neonatal lupus and congenital heart block are more common in newborns of mothers with SLE who carry antibodies referred to as anti-Ro (or SS-A) and anti-La (or SS-B). (It is wise for the newborn baby's doctor to be made aware if the mother is known to carry these antibodies, even prior to delivery. The risk of heart block is 2%; the risk of neonatal lupus is 5%.) Neonatal lupus usually clears after 6 months of age, as the mother's antibodies are slowly metabolized by the baby.

How can lupus affect pregnancy or the newborn?

Patients with SLE who become pregnant are considered "high risk." Women with SLE who are pregnant require close observation during pregnancy, delivery, and the postpartum period. This includes fetal monitoring by the obstetrician during later pregnancy. These women can have an increased risk of miscarriages (spontaneous abortions) and can have flares of SLE during pregnancy. The presence of phospholipid antibodies, such as cardiolipin antibodies or lupus anticoagulant, in the blood can identify patients at risk for miscarriages. Cardiolipin antibodies are associated with a tendency toward blood clotting. Patients with SLE who have cardiolipin antibodies or lupus anticoagulant may need blood-thinning medications (aspirin with or without heparin) during pregnancy to prevent miscarriages. Other reported treatments include the use of intravenous gamma globulin for selected patients with histories of premature miscarriage and those with low blood-clotting elements (platelets) during pregnancy. Pregnant women who have had a previous blood-clotting event may benefit by continuation of blood-thinning medications throughout and after pregnancy for up to six to 12 weeks, at which time the risk of clotting associated with pregnancy seems to diminish. Plaquenil has now been found to be safe for use to treat SLE during pregnancy.

Lupus antibodies can be transferred from the mother to the fetus and result in lupus illness in the newborn ("neonatal lupus"). This includes the development of low red cell (anemia) and/or white blood cell and platelet counts, and skin rash. Problems can also develop in the electrical system of the baby's heart (congenital heart block). Occasionally, a pacemaker for the baby's heart is needed in this setting. Neonatal lupus and congenital heart block are more common in newborns of mothers with SLE who carry antibodies referred to as anti-Ro (or SS-A) and anti-La (or SS-B). (It is wise for the newborn baby's doctor to be made aware if the mother is known to carry these antibodies, even prior to delivery. The risk of heart block is 2%; the risk of neonatal lupus is 5%.) Neonatal lupus usually clears after 6 months of age, as the mother's antibodies are slowly metabolized by the baby.

What is lupus? What are the types of lupus?

Lupus is an autoimmune disease characterized by acute and chronic inflammation of various tissues of the body. Autoimmune diseases are illnesses that occur when the body's tissues are attacked by its own immune system. The immune system is a complex system within the body that is designed to fight infectious agents, such as bacteria and other foreign microbes. One of the ways that the immune system fights infections is by producing antibodies that bind to the microbes. Patients with lupus produce abnormal antibodies in their blood that target tissues within their own body rather than foreign infectious agents. Because the antibodies and accompanying cells of inflammation can affect tissues anywhere in the body, lupus has the potential to affect a variety of areas. Sometimes lupus can cause disease of the skin, heart, lungs, kidneys, joints, and/or nervous system. When only the skin is involved, the condition is called lupus dermatitis or cutaneous lupus erythematosus. A form of lupus dermatitis that can be isolated to the skin, without internal disease, is called discoid lupus. When internal organs are involved, the condition is referred to as systemic lupus erythematosus (SLE).

Both discoid and systemic lupus are more common in women than men (about eight times more common). The disease can affect all ages but most commonly begins from 20 to 45 years of age. Statistics demonstrate that lupus is somewhat more frequent in African Americans and people of Chinese and Japanese descent.

What causes lupus? Is it hereditary?

The precise reason for the abnormal autoimmunity that causes lupus is not known. Inherited genes, viruses, ultraviolet light, and certain medications may all play some role.

Genetic factors increase the tendency of developing autoimmune diseases, and autoimmune diseases such as lupus, rheumatoid arthritis, and autoimmune thyroid disorders are more common among relatives of patients with lupus than the general population. Some scientists believe that the immune system in lupus is more easily stimulated by external factors like viruses or ultraviolet light. Sometimes, symptoms of lupus can be precipitated or aggravated by only a brief period of sun exposure.

It also is known that some women with SLE can experience worsening of their symptoms prior to their menstrual periods. This phenomenon, together with the female predominance of SLE, suggest that female hormones play an important role in the expression of SLE. This hormonal relationship is an active area of ongoing study by scientists.

More recently, research has demonstrated evidence that a key enzyme's failure to dispose of dying cells may contribute the development of SLE. The enzyme, DNase1, normally eliminates what is called "garbage DNA" and other cellular debris by chopping them into tiny fragments for easier disposal. Researchers turned off the DNase1 gene in mice. The mice appeared healthy at birth, but after six to eight months, the majority of mice without DNase1 showed signs of SLE. Thus, a genetic mutation in a gene that could disrupt the body's cellular waste disposal may be involved in the initiation of SLE.

What does the future hold for patients with lupus?

Overall, the outlook for patients with systemic lupus is improving each decade with the development of more accurate monitoring tests and treatments.

The role of the immune system in causing diseases is becoming better understood through research. This knowledge will be applied to design safer and more effective treatment methods. For example, completely revising the immune system of patients with extremely aggressive treatments that virtually temporarily wipe out the immune system is being evaluated. Current studies involve immune eradication with or without replacement of cells that can re-establish the immune system (stem cell transplantation).

It should be noted that patients with SLE are at a somewhat increased risk for developing cancer. The cancer risk is most dramatic for blood cancers, such as leukemia and lymphoma, but is also increased for breast cancer. This risk probably relates, in part, to the altered immune system that is characteristic of SLE.

Women with SLE appear to be at increased risk for heart disease (coronary artery disease) according to recent reports. Women with SLE should be evaluated and counseled to minimize risk factors for heart disease, such as elevated blood cholesterol, quitting smoking, high blood pressure, and obesity.

DHEA (dehydroepiandrosterone) has been helpful in reducing fatigue, improving thinking difficulties, and improving quality of life in patients with SLE. Recent research indicates that DHEA has been shown to improve or stabilize signs and symptoms of SLE. DHEA is commonly available in health-food stores, pharmacies, and many groceries.

Landmark research has shown clearly that oral contraceptives do not increase the rate of flares of systemic lupus erythematosus. This important finding is opposite to what has been thought for years. Now we can reassure women with lupus that if they take birth-control pills, they are not increasing their risk for lupus flares. NOTE: Birth-control pills or any estrogen medications should still be avoided by women who are at increased risk of blood clotting, such as women with lupus who have phospholipid antibodies (including cardiolipin antibody and lupus anticoagulant).

Individuals with SLE can improve their prognosis by learning about the many aspects of the illness as well as closely monitoring their own health with their doctors.

Itz really getting hard to understand~

I force myself to understand~

I force myself to believe~



But why am i forcing?



"最近为什么我有一种会失去些东西的感觉？我好不喜欢哦。。周围的人都说这样那样，但我还是选择保持不动。因为我珍惜。不知‘你’会体会得到我对你的关心，爱吗?"

I should feel this sentense is for mi... but don't think i'm the only one who feel this way...Why?

I could sense that you're busy and happy entertaining "them".
It hurtz... JL only courting you for how long cannot take it liao... imagine for mi...

Well~ hope you would have had enough of so call "fun" before my heart is totally dead... cos itz has been getting weaker and weaker...

Talk to me~

God Bless

感动天感动地

一开始我以为爱本来会很容易

所以没有经过允许就把你放心底

直到后来有一天你和他走在一起

我才发现原来爱情不是真心就可以




我感动天感动地怎么感动不了你


明明知道没有结局却还死心塌地


我感动天感动地怎么感动不了你


总相信爱情会有奇迹都是我骗自己




以为自己不再去想你
保持不被刺痛的距离
就算早已忘了我自己
却还想要知道你的消息

Why are there so many misfortunes falling on you after we seperated? Why at this time.......

爱太痛

吃不能吃睡不能睡
没有了你全都不对
我都学不会把爱敷衍
用笑容来把眼泪催眠
笑不能笑哭不敢哭
人不像人鬼不像鬼
朋友都说这不过失恋
但我却连呼吸都胆怯
能不能不爱了因为爱太痛了
我痛得快死了却无法把你忘了
能不能不爱了爱情它太痛了
我痛得快死了却无法把爱割舍
...我不能睡...

I Wish, I hope, I wonder

Thank You

Thank you for giving me the feeling i had lost for a long time... i was very very happy yesterday night... eventhough it was just a meal. I hope this feeling will be back, not just for 1 night... but for long... i will put lotz of love and dote you alot alot.

面对现实, 不要逃避现实

If someday you were to disappear just like that... it will just be another run away...

Itz like that....
when you meet problem at point A, you're afraid and you run away to point B.. meet another problem, u will have 2 problems instead of 1. Point C, Point D and so on... end up you have loads of problems in you...

Like i said before... vIRGO is's weakness is indecisive... you'll have to overcome it... i'm learning on this too cos i'm also a virgo.

you'll have to learn to make decisions. Itz part of growing process.

想太多

你笑着说他是朋友
但你眼中太温柔
我的不安那么沉重
只有你不懂

他霸占了你的心中
属于我的角落
所以你说我们不是你和我

是我想太多你总这样说
但你却没有真的心疼我
是我想太多我也这样说
这是唯一能安慰我的理由

他霸占了你的心中
属于我的角落
所以你说我们不是你和我

是我想太多你总这样说
但你却没有真的心疼我
是我想太多我也这样说
这是唯一能安慰我的理由

我想我没有错怪了什么
虽然你不说或许错在我
太晚我才懂爱了你太多

是我想太多你总这样说
但你却没有真的心疼我
是我想太多我也这样说
这是唯一能安慰我的理由

I know i shouldn't...... But i miss you~

搞笑

那一条牙膏在对我傻笑
嘲笑我永远用不掉
想睡就睡想闹就闹
好快乐少了人唠叨

蓝色的碗盘多买了一套
我忘了没人陪我通宵
要多少替代的丑角无辜的陪笑
才会让我能真的忘了你的好

我在搞笑藉着热闹掩盖着心跳
边哭边笑偏要说着一个人真好
当人群散了突然觉得我可以死掉我受不了
还在搞笑害怕回家不知怎麽熬
这麽多年早就习惯有你的撒娇
我想我能熬但是至少要让我知道你好不好

我们的小狗食量变好小
眼神里常常显得无聊
它习惯睡觉的床尾少了一双脚
所以它常常看着门口睡不着

我在搞笑藉着热闹掩盖着心跳
边哭边笑偏要说着一个人真好
当人群散了突然觉得我可以死掉我受不了
我在搞笑却在醉后眼泪拼命飙
你的离开失去多少我计算不了
忙完了一天突然觉得又何必辛劳对谁炫耀

还在搞笑是否拥有麻痹的疗效
唱一夜歌却避不开催泪的曲调
我彻夜胡闹希望听到有人会提到你好不好

妥协

你总爱编织谎言
我负责配合表演
所有改变 只为了进入你的世界
这情节 重复了一百遍
才发现 是你的心太远
你划定楚河汉界
不能轻易犯规
所有时间 都是先给了你优先权
不自觉 爱到不敢冒险
成了你的傀儡一年两年
才看见我有多狼狈
爱到妥协 到头来还是误解
抱着你 不让你飞
历史不断重演 我好累
爱到妥协 也无法将故事再重现
你也想退后一点 我躲在我的世界
你划定楚河汉界
我不能轻易犯规
所有时间 都是先给了你优先权
不自觉 爱到不敢冒险
成了你的傀儡一年两年
才看见我有多狼狈
爱到妥协 到头来还是误解
抱着你 不让你飞
历史不断重演 我好累
爱到妥协 也无法将故事再重现
你也想退后一点 我躲在我的世界
你只是害怕一个人睡
我不想再为你掉泪
我了解 不会再仍在徘徊
开始自己的明天
爱到妥协 到头来还是误解
抱着你 不让你飞
历史不断重演 我好累
爱到妥协 也无法将故事再重现
你也想退后一点 我躲在我的世界

你怎么舍得我难过

对你的思念是一天又一天
孤单的我还是没有改变
美丽的梦何时才能出现
亲爱的你好想再见你一面
秋天的风一阵阵地吹过
想起了去年的这个时候
你的心到底在想些什么
为什么留下这个结局让我承受
最爱你的人是我你怎么舍得我难过
在我最需要你的时候没有一句话就走
最爱你的人是我你怎么舍得我难过
对你付出了这么多你却没有感动过
对你的思念是一天又一天
孤单的我还是没有改变
美丽的梦何时才能出现
亲爱的你好想再见你一面
秋天的风一阵阵地吹过
想起了去年的这个时候
你的心到底在想些什么
为什么留下这个结局让我承受
最爱你的人是我你怎么舍得我难过
在我最需要你的时候没有一句话就走
最爱你的人是我你怎么舍得我难过
对你付出了这么多你却没有感动过
最爱你的人是我你怎么舍得我难过
在我最需要你的时候没有一句话就走
最爱你的人是我你怎么舍得我难过
对你付出了这么多你却没有感动过

把你藏起来

把手伸出来
写上我的爱
让你的眼泪都停下来
以后就算你再怎么爱游荡
爱象星空为你亮起来

你的笑象一种魔法

把夜变成海

我又恨又爱守在岸边等待

夜色越美我越难捱

心跳越厉害

万一你迷路怎么回来

好想把你藏起来

藏在胸前的口袋

把你暖暖地融化

你就再也离不开

我要把你藏起来

永远呵护这份爱

从此不让别人想

只准和我一个人相爱
把手伸出来
写上我的爱
让你的眼泪都停下来
以后就算你再怎么爱游荡
爱象星空为你亮起来

你的笑象一种魔法

把夜变成海

我又恨又爱守在岸边等待

夜色越美我越难捱

心跳越厉害

万一你迷路怎么回来

好想把你藏起来

藏在胸前的口袋

把你暖暖地融化

你就再也离不开

我要把你藏起来

永远呵护这份爱

从此不让别人想

只准和我一个人相爱
把手伸出来
写上我的爱
让你的眼泪都停下来
以后就算你再怎么爱游荡
爱象星空为你亮起来

你的笑象一种魔法

把夜变成海

我又恨又爱守在岸边等待

夜色越美我越难捱

心跳越厉害

万一你迷路怎么回来

好想把你藏起来

藏在胸前的口袋

把你暖暖地融化

你就再也离不开

我要把你藏起来

永远呵护这份爱

从此不让别人想

只准和我一个人相爱

冰箱- S.H.E

把大象放进冰箱有几个步骤
把河马放进冰箱有几个步骤
把回忆放进冰箱会不会寂寞
把爱情放进冰箱已经到了时候

让眼泪一次流够要几个枕头
让明天不再难过要多少纸鹤
让热情变成冷漠算不算罪过
让爱情退冰多久
才可以化为乌有
从今以后再没有人那样逗我
从今以后就要分手
从今以后冰箱不必再放啤酒
从今以后别在门口等我

让眼泪一次流够要几个枕头
让明天不再难过要多少纸鹤
让热情变成冷漠算不算罪过
让热情退冰多久
才可以化为乌有
从今以后再不需要别人哄我
从今以后就算分手
从今以后日记再也不用上锁
从今以后甚至不是朋友
苹果给你柠檬给我
可乐给你咖啡给我
自由给你真心给我
你的给你我的你不能带走
从今以后再没有人那样逗我
从今以后就要分手
从今以后冰箱不必再放啤酒
从今以后别在门口等我
从今以后别在门口等我
把大象放进冰箱有几个步骤
把河马放进冰箱有几个步骤
把回忆放进冰箱会不会寂寞
把爱情放进冰箱已经到了时候

让眼泪一次流够要几个枕头
让明天不再难过要多少纸鹤
让热情变成冷漠算不算罪过
让爱情退冰多久
才可以化为乌有
从今以后再没有人那样逗我
从今以后就要分手
从今以后冰箱不必再放啤酒
从今以后别在门口等我

让眼泪一次流够要几个枕头
让明天不再难过要多少纸鹤
让热情变成冷漠算不算罪过
让热情退冰多久
才可以化为乌有
从今以后再不需要别人哄我
从今以后就算分手
从今以后日记再也不用上锁
从今以后甚至不是朋友
苹果给你柠檬给我
可乐给你咖啡给我
自由给你真心给我
你的给你我的你不能带走
从今以后再没有人那样逗我
从今以后就要分手
从今以后冰箱不必再放啤酒
从今以后别在门口等我
从今以后别在门口等我

In a relationship.... you can't just take everything...... you'll have to make decisions whether itz a right or wrong one after analysing cos itz part of growing. If things just keep going on like that, even after years later... itz still gonna be this shape not growing.

No girl or guy like the feeling of their partner being shared. At your side you may be very happy cos you're receiving lotz of love... but you'll have to consider about other parties too.
If they say they are ok with sharing, itz either they're lying, or they're not serious in you.

people may say they feel sad... feel worried to see you struggling but Itz suppose to be something happy... cos at least you're showing you're matured and you're thinking. Someday you'll understand which one is better.

The result of your decision may turn sour one side... but you'll have to think... the longer you delay, the turn out may be even worse.

All the best to those who have read this.

我的心好像快不行了

爱我还是他-陶喆

黑暗中的我们都没有说话
你只想回家
不想你回家
寂寞深的像海太让人害怕
温柔你的手
轻轻揉着我的发
你的眉眼说
你好渴望我拥抱
你身体却在拼命逃
但欲望在燃烧
你爱我还是他
是不是真的他要比我好
你为谁在挣扎
爱我还是他
就说出你想说的真心话
你到底要跟我还是他
爱爱爱......
这是不是命运对我的惩罚
爱你也没办法
恨你也没办法
陷在这个漩涡只想挣脱它
拉住你的手
却让我也被拖下
你的眉眼说
你不渴望我拥抱
每当爱变成了煎熬
你就开始要逃
你爱我还是他
是不是我可以做他的好
你不再挣扎
爱我还是他
我宁愿听到残忍的回答
也不要再被耍
你爱我还是他
我为你找了一百个理由
我就是那么傻
爱我还是他
是否沉默代替你的回答
我应该明白吗
爱我是他噢
你都已看不到我们的好
我还会心牵挂
你爱我还是他
是否沉默就是你的回答
我们都别挣扎

Han Xiao Dai~

I will work hard~

Disaster

A guy tried to be nice... understanding, sorry and this is what he get...

Being treated like a "spare".

Schedules being fully booked for her seekers 1 on 1 from day to midnight other than work and personal activity.

His sms and calls are treated as annoying stuff which should be ignored. (When Calls and Smses were so sweet in the past).
The guy could sense his existance and importance so strongly but now almost zero...

Does the girl still love the guy? What exactly is she thinking?
If she does... Why on earth is she doing all these to him?

The girl was a really nice girlfriend (other than hot temper) when they were together, really sweet...
that the guy loved her so much and has already appointed her as an ideal partner for long...
but all these disasters are happening after the break up...

What should the guy's next step be?

(Attention: The guy did not commit anything serious like violence or 3rd party affair.)

Everytime

Everytime i close my eyes... i think of you....
Everytime i think of you... my heart aches...
Everytime i look at your pictures... my heart aches...
Everytime you sound cold to me... my heart aches...
Everytime i look at the gifts you gave me... my heart aches...
Everytime you go out with those guyz... my heart aches...
Everytime you ignore my messages... my heart aches...

Time.... plz fly faster...~

Heaven's playing game with me

Nobody will believe this... i tried and forced myself not to think.... but i have been dreaming of you for the past few days......... all the dreams you appeared in are those really sweet and beautiful scenario. This is not about day anymore..... now itz also night...

Somebody please save mi. :'(

Dearest you, Please comment this post. *:)

Dearest you,

LETZ GIVE & TAKE, You shall take the respect from mi and have fun(i trust your limit). But when the day i hold back your hand, you'll give them back to mi and stable down.

I missed "you" so much i wanna bring you back right now... but i've thought it over... i'd still like to be fair to u cos you missed the fun u were supposed to have before your current age (Even when i'm now been badly tortured by you).

You may feel great with what u are doing now... but why can't your colleagues or pple around you feel your true happiness? Cos this is what you missed and only wanna try and have a feel of it (Daniel & Jian Le). But a true heart is what you really wanna have (AhDear). Thatz why you are struggling between these 2.
I believe everyone around you wanna see you back in your original state with the true smile again and i assure if i finally hold your hand back, your smile will be what everybody will like to see.

This is gonna be the final strike i shall give for our love and my heart...

If this plan is a success, our love will be very very nuch stronger, even everlasting.
But if this plan fail, my heart shall die COMPLETELY with you in your dream. No more worries,no more jealousy, no more love

i'll need your FULL Co-operation for this plan.

Please comment

Your Dearest
AhDear

The result has proven itz right of me heeding your advice to endure, not listening to negatives and wrong suggestions by friends
or
The result has proven itz stupid of me heeding your advice and not to listening to their negatives but right suggestion.

which one is our destiny?

I finally get to see the true picture~

After so many days of struggle... i finally see whatz going on....
Believe no one but your own eyes and ears... they give you the best answer.. *:)

為什麼

难道真的要完完全全失去了一个人, 才会懂得去珍惜和想念吗?

I Fell... But i must be strong and get up to Achieve..~

Dear... I will be strong... and bring u back into my life~~ Jiayou! ^^

请原谅我

I'm really really sorry for the past few times being rude to you when i was drunk...

When u called mi... i sound cold towards you cos anger was covering my eyes and i regretted badly for that. I deeply apologise for that.

Please stop ignoring mi...

From the bottom of my broken heart

Seeing you in such situation is really like putting salt on my wound.... I know i don't like what you are doing now... i know i hate it... But i love u...

Lotz of pple envied our rs in the past... but lotz of people are asking mi to give up.. but i'm still hoping for miracle to happen... Why? Cos until now.... i still love you..

How am i gonna make it? how long can i persevere? The answer is, I will need your help to make things happen... i'm making use of the sweet memories and relationship we had to save the situation.... But the rs did not only consist of mi alone...

I hope you'll see this... and when you see this.. you will feel wat i'm going through now and will help me in making things happen. I pray...

我真的很痛 :'(

The good and bad time we spent together for 2 whole years... the sweet memories we had together.... the effort we put in this relationship. It seems to have fade off from you.

Everything was so pure and genuine.... maybe i didn't show it out, but i really felt so lucky and blessed to have you in my life.

I could sense the importance i had in your life... now itz gone...

You're putting revenge on what you did not have in your previous relationship. I understood you and gave you freedom... but you seem to have abused it. He could go to the extend of not letting you go out with even your cousin alone... but now you're even going out with another guy alone. You couldn't be home past midnight and now you're home in the morning... Isn't this telling me i shouldn't be so nice and linient to my girl in future?

I see the way you are right now.... the way you're treating me.... i got stabbed right through my heart, and itz bleeding very badly.... I feel so..............

If you still love me....
how could you bare to treat me so crude.... being cold towards me, being close towards other guyz... made me so worried... but don't seem to bother mi at all.

If you don't love me...
why did you let me have the kinda past feeling when u received my flower and gift?

You went clubbing... seemed a little drunk... I saw u leaving with 2 girls and Daniel, that guy that admires you. Ok fine... text mi when you're home. Ended up i got to know that the girls seperated with the two of you and left only Daniel sending u back. Ya.. to you... it may be ok, fine... but do you know how worried i was when i knew that and couldn't get you? Called your home after some time and you're still not back. While you were enjoying your breakfast with him, have you thought of me? Possibilty that i'll be waiting for your message or call? Like wat i mentioned, could at least borrowed his phone to inform mi you're safe. Last time you would have done that... but not now.

The reminder "hey, we have already broken up" could come out from your mouth just like that.

This is how cruel you can be towards my love for you.

I asked you this question, "Do you still want us back together?" Do you know whats the other meaning behind it? " Do you really want a THOROUGH break up? " which mean we would no longer have any bit of love for each other anymore. And if itz really this way, i will totally give up... totally erase all the memories we had together... forget you. Where ever you go... whatever you do... i wouldn't ask... i wouldn't care. Itz not easy.. but i can do that. Is this really what you want?
Cos the way i'm looking at myself now, i fell like i'm a puppet... i feel like i'm nothing but a fool... a STUPID FOOL...


Or do you wanna be like what we were like in the past... love is the only word that can be seen in us.

I really wanna know whatz in your mind....

回到过去

一盏黄黄旧旧的灯
时间在旁闷不吭声
寂寞下手毫无分寸
不懂得轻重之分
沉默支撑跃过陌生
静静看着凌晨黄昏
你的身影
失去平衡
慢慢下沉

黑暗已在空中盘旋
该往哪我看不见
也许爱在梦的另一端
无法存活在真实的空间

想回到过去
试着抱你在怀里
羞怯的脸带有一点稚气

想看你看的世界
想在你梦的画面
只要靠在一起
就能感觉甜蜜

想回到过去
试着让故事继续
至少不再让你离我而去
分散时间的注意
这次会抱得更紧
这样挽留不知
还来不来得及

想回到过去

思绪不断
阻挡着回忆播放
盲目的追寻
仍然空空荡荡

灰蒙蒙的夜晚
睡意又不知躲到哪去
一转身孤单
已躺在身旁

想回到过去
试着抱你在怀里
羞怯的脸带有一点稚气
想看你看的世界
想在你梦的画面
只要靠在一起
就能感觉甜蜜

想回到过去
试着让故事继续
至少不再让你离我而去
分散时间的注意
这次会抱得更紧
这样挽留不知
还来不来得及

想回到过去

沉默支撑跃过陌生
静静看着凌晨黄昏
失去平衡
慢慢下沉
你的身影
想回到过去
一盏黄黄旧旧的灯
时间在旁闷不吭声
寂寞下手毫无分寸
不懂得轻重之分
沉默支撑跃过陌生
静静看着凌晨黄昏
你的身影
失去平衡
慢慢下沉

黑暗已在空中盘旋
该往哪我看不见
也许爱在梦的另一端
无法存活在真实的空间

想回到过去
试着抱你在怀里
羞怯的脸带有一点稚气

想看你看的世界
想在你梦的画面
只要靠在一起
就能感觉甜蜜

想回到过去
试着让故事继续
至少不再让你离我而去
分散时间的注意
这次会抱得更紧
这样挽留不知
还来不来得及

想回到过去

思绪不断
阻挡着回忆播放
盲目的追寻
仍然空空荡荡

灰蒙蒙的夜晚
睡意又不知躲到哪去
一转身孤单
已躺在身旁